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After a week and a half, I have actually done the exercising about 5 times. I'm getting a little better at it, in form, though not in muscle tone or breathing.
I can almost follow the easy beginning. When it gets rougher my hip wears out. Then I either follow the arm movements (a workout by itself) or lean on a chair and follow the leg movements.
I expect that eventually I'll get better. At my rate, I don't expect results in 6 weeks, but I'm going to try.
While I haven't tried to follow their diet, I *have* been off sugar about 3 weeks, and my ambition level shows it.
Hip Hop Abs|
Okay, new plan.
The fact is that what I need more than anything, more than not eating sugar, is exercise. I hate that fact. Especially since I am limited in what I can do.
But I saw one of those infomercials a few weeks ago that advertised exercise that looks like something I can do. The main thing is that you can do it standing in one place, and secondarily if focuses on the stomach, which is my primary problem area, in terms of fat.
So yesterday was Day One. I exercised with it (with a lot of breaks) for nearly an hour. It has an online program associated with it, but I probably won't buy the membership to that. It *does* allow posting 'before' pictures without the membership, and participation in a 'dance along' kind of program wherein you could possibly maybe win some money during your scheduled exercise. Ho hum.
It also comes with diet suggestions. I may try getting strict with them, but I'm not sure. One of them is not eating for at least 3 hours before bed - same rule as my 'not eating after 8:00 pm'. Which I seldom stick to. I know this stuff, though, and the reasoning behind it. I may actually do it. Right now, I just do the exercise.
So, starting at:
Upper arm: 14
So, on to the enthusiastic (and very well built) exercise leader ...
So I have now actually done this two days in a row. Victory!!
I figure that I'm actually 'working' about one third of the 30-minute routine. While resting, I rock back and forth on my feet - heel-toe-heel-toe - to keep my legs pumping blood. (It's very bad for you to simply stop after working hard, especially if you remain standing.) I may try putting it in slow motion later, but right now I can't follow it well enough to matter. I just do it the best I can.
Unfortunately, I am in a 'high pain' week. After Son being here for a week, and Other Son treating us to an early Thanksgiving dinner, I've had too much sweet, although I think not enough that I can't stop. But left hip and knee are giving me real trouble.
So I'm not actually shifting my feet with the exercise, just doing arm and stomach movements and shifting the weight back and forth. I should be better by next week.
Assuming that I hang in there ...
I suppose I should mention for my own future tracking just exactly where I stand now.
I've been trying to be good about diet since early spring. I'm still trying. As Yoda says, there is no try, just do. I was doing really well, then got an attack of chocolate craving. I wonder whether this is kind of a hidden PMS? Would that be the PMS time of month if I were still having periods? I probably ought to track that. I probably won't, though.
So in one shopping trip I bought 'sugarless' chocolate pudding and mini brownies. Then I ate one pudding serving and three brownies. It's not as bad as it could be, though - I've been keeping it to one serving every two days since.
And I've been able to work. The shelves are making good progress. I'm thinking half-way clearly.
And I've decided that the proper breakfast is a little exercise. I've been doing 200 steps in the morning before eating anything significant. I think it's helping, and the 200 are getting a little easier.
But I have to do better in order to really look forward to facing another year.
Played around with this today. Stabbed fingers a dozen times in 4 1/2 hours. New glucosometer has a gentler stab.
I got up late, then just didn't think about eating until after 1:00, at which point I got to wondering what my fasting sugar was.
After eating a small serving of papaya my legs hurt right away and I got to wondering just what that may have done to my sugar, and retook it. Results of the day are in this chart ( (generated directly from WP /advertising).Collapse )
Is life really about constantly starting over? That's what I've spent my life doing - starting over with marriage, starting over with college, starting over with child raising ...
I'm starting over again on diet. Again, and again, and again. Is there any way to prevent the inevitable failure which leads to that next starting over?
It isn't all that hard, once I've gotten there. Once the sugar taste is totally out of my system, once other food tastes good again, once the pain goes away and the energy comes back, so why do I fail? What happens? I'm beginning to think it's mostly other people's influence.
Daughterly was on about strawberry shortcake the other day. Reasonable request for the time of year, right? But I know I can't do that. I can't make it for everyone else and not eat any. I can't even have it in the house and not eat any, regardless of who's making it. I can't eat it without sugar, as she's claiming she wants to do. No. No strawberry shortcake.
The last time I was really doing well was several years ago now, after the hip operation. I had been *really* good for that! Then Mary came to visit (this was before she moved in) and she wanted blueberry pandowdy. I make that with minimal sugar, and thought I should be able to handle it. But I haven't been truly 'clean' since then.
I gave up the chocolate over a week ago. I *did* have one bite on Friday, but I think I have that licked for now. Ice cream has become a terrible temptation in this heat, but I have resisted that so far. I *have* made yogurt smoothies four times this week, and have figured out that I can't even do that. The amount of sugar in a cup of yogurt, even though my share amounts to only a quarter of it, is just too much. I'm going to try them without sugared yogurt and see whether the fruit itself is out of the question.
The pain is down, but not down far enough to consider walking any distance, and the energy is not up at all yet.
Anyway, I'll try tracking progress again, now that there is some. I'm going to count it from June 1st, even though it wasn't really quite that long, it's a convenient date, and close enough.
So July 1st is one month, August 1st the second, and September 1st is the magic three months, by which time the blood has entirely renewed itself. I'm hoping to be able to walk without limping by the beginning of August, so that I'll be in good shape for the SFX volunteering that I enjoy so much.
Chocolate and additives|
Well, I've too busy to bother much with this lately, but wanted to record recent observations.
For months now, I've been eating only very dark chocolate for a sweet. (Or plain fresh fruit, but quite a bit of chocolate.) And while my health, pain, and activity are not optimal, I've found that I can function quite well this way.
It's important to avoid it after 8pm, and I try to limit it before that: allowing a fair amount in the morning, less after noon, and trying to cut it out by 5:00. But there are, of course, very good antioxydants in chocolate, so I tell myself that I'm not doing too badly.
However, last week Tuesday, I got a hankering for blueberry muffins. I combined two mixes (because each of them are better that way), and they turned out great. So great that I couldn't stop myself until I'd eaten three of them.
The pain started before I'd finished the third one. This isn't truly hip pain, it's pain all down the long muscles of my legs. I could barely lift a leg up a step to go upstairs, never mind putting weight on it to climb.
This was very much like the pain I got 14 years ago that really started my dibility. I never figured out exactly what set that off, but it started after eating aspartame-sweetened chocolate pudding. That pain lasted for months, and threw me into premature menopause, left me with the hip arthritis (which had been just a bare hint of beginning before that), as well as weaker eyesight, thinner hair, weaker fingernails, and much more advanced diabetes.
This time it went on for days; I wasn't able to get a whole lot done, but my head was clear, so I did keep persevering. The thing is that I *know* that it wasn't the sugar. I've eaten that much sugar occasionally lately. Muffins are sweet, but not *that* sweet!
On Monday this week, I ate a pepper. I doubt that it matters what kind, but it was yellow. Within an hour, most of the pain was gone.
I have no real explanation, besides the fact that raw vegetables are exceedingly good for you.
For the record, here are all the ingedients which could possibly be the culprit:
sodium aluminum phosphate
monoesters of fatty acids
sodium stearoyl lactylate
I need to check whether any of these are also in that sugarless pudding, whether, that time, it really was the aspartame.
Still cutting the chocolate. Yesterday and the day before, I had only a few 'bites'. The cumulative effect, however, is getting to my hip. That's giving me some real trouble. Pain pills, limping, and even the crutch yesterday. Energy is rising though. I'm thinking a little better.
Ate less sweet yesterday. Too short a time to have much effect, except that the gums were better when I brushed.
Energy remains low. I can't get enough sleep. I know that's the sugar, but can't seem to convince my body, which *knows* that more sugar means more energy.
Right now I can't seem to get up the ambition to make the three phone calls that I *need* to make.
Well, I'm eating just as much sweet. And I'm still seriously constipated. But I'm also taking the vivarin and eating better food, and my energy is up. A little.
Need to exercise more, though.
On again; off again|
I'm on sugar again. Symptomatically, this means:
I don't want to do anything but eat.
I don't want to eat anything but sweets.
I'm tired all the time, but can't sleep through the night.
I get 'pink toothbrush'.
My hip pains to the point that I can hardly walk.
This is really a direct result of having had so many responsibilities and having to keep going past exhaustion. Consequently, I ... eat sugar. When it goes on long enough, I get hooked again.
I'm going to try to document getting 'out' of it again. I'm going to see whether I can do it with little to no will power, using my Rules.
If you must eat sweet, try to force yourself to eat something with heavy fiber first.
Eat apples. This satisfies both sweet and fiber.
Take hoodia three times a day. And other pills.
Use caffiene to get going twice a day.
Exercise one to three times a day. 'Exercise' means: raise heart rate, get out of breath, use muscles until they burn.
Brush teeth frequently. (With baking soda.)
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